I am afraid,
afraid to let myself free,
to allow myself to take wing,
to be the star-shining butterfly locked inside of me.
Chained by my mind in a cage of lies,
but still she shines,
patiently awaiting to be set free.
With loving light she shine in me.
she holds no grudge,
nor passes a judgment,
as I argue and fight my own transformation.
Evolving a state of discretion,
filled with blues no window could take.
Chaotic mind,
paralytic state,
pushing, pulling, and falling down.
Forcing myself up off the ground.
Self evolution,
re-birthed, anew,
knowing this is my inevitable truth.
Getting out of my own way is what I must do,
but this heavy weight makes me struggle to get through.
To let go, it seems I just can’t do.
But this beautiful light locked inside,
is worth all my efforts,
worth winning this fight,
this fight, I have created within the confines of my own mind.
Finally shattering my paradigm of lies.
No longer living an illusion of comfort.
A comfort, discomfort, aimless reach.
Comfort in the known limits so habitual to me.
Indeed, a discomfort so familiar it seems.
A concept of home it has become to me.
Displaced in furthest thing from home.
Left to roam with a feeling of disgrace.
Displaced from home in a forgetful state.
Home, home, I want to go home,
But to where it is I do not know,
I’ll fallen down a spiraling hole,
where direction leads with a linear tone.
Tone deaf is what I have been programmed to be.
Missing the rhythms,
I have forgotten me,
I have forgotten we,
the harmonious vibrations we were meant to be.
Unchaining myself so we can finally be… FREE!
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